I've recently admitted that trying to set physical recovery goals is just like it was in trying to control my seizures. I have no way of predicting when or how my nerves are going to react or affect my body.
With the aging changes my body is starting to undergo, along with how messed up my neurological system is, I have no control but to do my best while hoping for the best. Even when I think I'm celebrating progress, a neurological reconnection starts teaching me differently. There will be times when months of work must be dropped to accept what is. I will never succeed in chasing ‘normal’ and there is no likelihood of ever having my neurological system be anything but something I'm not meant to control. I'm tired of believing in fantasy and would prefer to enjoy my life without any expectations. If I've lived with neurological defects for this long, who's to say that this isn't ‘normal' for me? There are plenty of opportunities to grow beyond the physical world.
No more Fantasy
Accept your reality
Perfect as you are
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