TJ the Weighted Plush

Recently, I posted Does Pain Distract Pain? about how I've been dealing with my head pains. I was still sorting and connecting to my past when I wrote that, and I couldn't shake the feeling that I was being mean to myself and misunderstanding my pain. Since that time, I started noticing how mental and spiritual improvements would make me feel more pain in my body. I concluded that pain could be a sign of healing, but I was in the habit of relating pain to my past trauma. If I wanted to achieve physical healing, it was time to be more loving towards my body and accepting of the full experience. I began stopping myself from getting mad or hitting myself while in a negative mood. 

I was curious if something with weight and fun could help me with my head pains because the weight of a stuffed toy has been helpful for my headaches. I purchased a hand-sized weighted plush. The weight is enough to help calm the pain, and its size lets me always have it with me while preventing me from using it against myself. Because it's cute and supposed to be my friend, I don't want to be mean with it. 

 After having it for one day, I decided to call it TJ for Tommy Junior. Tommy was what I named my tumor and to think that TJ is in relation to my past and taking care of the wounds it left makes me view my past in a less traumatic light. I wouldn't be shocked if TJ will hardly have to sit on my head and remains as a fun reminder, I think the shift in mindset has already made my head pains a lighter issue. When we find a fun way of dealing with our problems while loving the whole of the situation, everything aligns, and we can move on to more adventures!