December, Month of Enjoyment

For the month of December, and my last monthly theme, I’ve chosen enjoyment as my theme.

To me, enjoyment is about connecting to my inner peace. In whatever circumstance I find myself in, I am in enjoyment when I give myself time to be conscious of my feelings and thoughts in the moment. 

Throughout my life, December is the month to anticipate family gatherings. When I was young and excited about presents and hugs, the month was enjoyable. When I became scared of feeling everyone’s concern for me, it was less enjoyable, and it became something I became wary of. When I was insecure of my body, December became a time I anticipated judgement. In acknowledging my present thoughts and feelings, I found understanding as to why I didn’t enjoy the holidays as I used to. As the experience evolves and I become more aware of myself, I know what my thought stems from and how I want to be, and enjoyment is easier when I can weed out what prevents me. I’ve come to enjoy letting the bad happen so I can recognize the good that’s being born.

For whatever reason you feel unhappy, take time to weed through your reason why. Understand yourself and make a choice of where you want to be. Accept that not everything can be enjoyable in the moment and remember to have faith that life will work itself out. Be open to the changes, flow with what occurs and embrace yourself to find enjoyment. Happy loving, everyone! May you find peace as the year comes to an end and you set forth to begin anew.