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Growing up, I was taught that jealousy is evil and must be avoided at all cost. I thought it was the root of hate and would prevent love, but now I know that perception isn’t true.

I wanted to be a good person and my life led me to differences that caused envy for what others could freely enjoy and explore. For so many years, I suppressed the feeling out of fear of being bad. I devoted myself to placing others first and never remembered to consider my well-being.

Recently, self-awareness has taught me that recognition of a negative emotion is awareness to understand it and it will only become bad if I choose to let the negativity grow.  Flowing with the emotion freed me to explore why it’s there, the causes for me to work out and realize my actual place. 

Admittance of jealousy helped to accept that a negative emotion isn’t the source of evil or hate, it’s a step of self-recognition required to decide on the next steps in life. Feel free to explore a negative emotion, be open to the experience and remain aware of who you are and how you want to be. Love yourself in all circumstances and emotions to grow into a better version of you.