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The hardest thing about listening to the inner voice and having full faith in its message is knowing that nobody else can hear its truth and having no physical proof to support the belief. It is the hardest thing about believing and a worthy challenge for growth.

When I had my stroke, I woke up shocked with my new body. In my heart, I knew that I requested a new challenge and I’d conquer it one day. As evaluations were made to determine where I was, I had to admit the severity of this challenge and couldn’t lose faith in my belief. Listening to predictions from statistics, people around me grew scared and bewildered. They wanted to sympathize with the hardship that had to be faced but couldn’t understand my calm acceptance. There was no way of explaining in ways easily understood and I had to stick to it, no matter what fears were brought my way.

Along the journey, many offered modifications to work past the left side’s disability and wondered why I chose to reject it. I couldn’t demonstrate any progress on the left to prove myself and I wouldn’t allow myself to drop my faith in a successful recovery. There was no way of describing how or when it would come about, I relied only on my belief that overcoming it is possible.