You never know what’s true until you wear the shoe.
Many people have shared administration for how I’ve handled my life and I’ve heard, “If I were in your situation, I don’t think I’d survive.” Despite how proud that makes me feel, I am not content knowing that people have this thought. I wish for everyone to believe in what they can do without worry about what may not be.
Five years ago, if I was told that I had to have my stroke, I would have said the same thing. I would’ve feared going for surgery to resolve the epilepsy. When I made my decision, I didn’t focus on the consequences because I was determined to rid my life of seizures. I concentrated on what could be and did my best to ignore the fears.
When I woke up from my surgery and was informed, I was shocked and didn’t know what to think or how to accept it, but I knew that I wanted to be with my family, had faith that a life without seizures could be possible and I wanted to discover what life was offering.
Accepting a situation isn’t easy but, when we know what we want, it’s easier to decipher our path and what resources are needed for the journey. A constant focus on what we want keeps us on our chosen path.
I wasn’t fully aware throughout my adventure after brain surgery but the one thing I knew from the beginning was that I wasn’t going to give up. I wanted to leave the world knowing that I contributed all my efforts to be the best person I could be. Right now, my adventure isn’t over, and I don’t foresee an end being near because I realize that this isn’t just a fight with epilepsy, surgery was a first step in my self-discovery mission.
If I were in their situation, I could never do what they do. For anyone who looks upon another and has this thought: Please be aware of who you are, don’t ponder on the negatives of the situation and decide your fate based on another person’s life. When a situation is meant for you, you will recognize your desires and awaken your determination. A person can do anything they put their mind to when they remain respectful of what they’re offered. You will not know what is true for you until you wear the shoe. Don’t waste your time worrying about something that doesn’t exist for you, work with what you have and determine your direction every time you face a challenge. You will know what you want, and you will find the inspiration to accomplish your desires. Don’t compare yourself to another, accept yourself and appreciate the resources you’re provided to succeed.